This chapter struck a bit of a painful note for me personally. As we talked about balancing ministry and missions with business and life, I felt convicted once more about something that has been tugging at me for some time. I'm not really involved in any church here in Enid, so the opportunities for service are few and far between. I recently tried to join a missions trip, but my parents vetoed it on the grounds that I wasn't ready. I feel the pressure to serve and to minister to people, but my life seems to be full of too many closed doors, and too few open ones.
You see, being military (everything comes back to that point, doesn't it?), and moving a TON, I have never been solidly involved long-time in any church or mission. I was as involved as I could be at our church in DC, but since we lived 45 minutes away, it was hard to stay consistent. As I've grown older, my responsibilities at home have increased, and with the advent of my life as an independent driver, my family's reliance on me will only increase. Plus, I'm getting a job this summer that cuts out my hours from 8-5. Now, I'm not complaining or giving excuses here. This is just my life, my basic schedule, and though I've felt the call to give my time and energy in service, I just never have an opportunity that fits in my schedule!
For a while, I've felt bad about this. Everyone tells me how amazing this service project was, or how awesome a time they had on that missions trip, and I know it! I've had that same feeling serving before, and I want that in my life. I know that faith without works is dead, and that our actions towards others reflects our love for Christ. As we read the chapter, I felt more and more convicted, until finally I reached the point where I asked myself, "What am I doing wrong?". According to John Piper, nothing.
This hit me right between the eyes. According to Piper, service to God does not have to consist of all-time ministry; our daily lives can be missions work! I can be a light to the lost in things as ordinary as school, softball, work, piano lessons. I can make a difference for the Lord in even things that seem as small as those. This is a radical concept for me. I'm a perfectionist, everyone knows. I want to do BIG things that people notice! Little changes don't stand out to me very much. But in this chapter, I saw that even the little things can make a big difference for Christ's kingdom. Working for Him and glorifying Him in our work, like the beaver, is as much a witness as our testimony. Now, I'm still going to try to get more involved in active ministry, but at the same time, I need to remind myself that my actions every day are a testimony, and that if I dedicate any service for His glory, it can be used like missions. This to me is a comforting and relieving thought.
Luther
14 years ago